Water...
Life, emotions, could be dangerous but more so uncertain.
Birds...
Freedom, liberation.
Dolpins...
Spiritual guidance, intellect, mental and emotional trust, utilizing your mind to capacity.
Walking and Roads...
Movement, where are you going? Or want to go?
Young girl...
Learning to be receptive to happiness, tranquility.
Old woman...
Ready to learn from examples and the past.
So I had this funny dream.
It all started somewhere along a road. I could see in front of me down a long path with buildings standing tall on either side of me. I could see a cross road ahead, but still the same with large buildings blocking my view from any sort of horizon. I was walking with who I thought to be my sister, but nonetheless younger than I. We were walking and talking about usual things, life, love, what vacation we were to go on next...
But then it seemed to move into a place where I was more so watching the conversation instead. I started to to drift off. I then came to a balcony overlooking the ocean. I was standing next to an older woman and she was showing me the women down wading in the water. I saw them metamorphosize into dolphins and then looked up to my right where there was a seagull hovering in the air.
This is about all I remember of my dream, but I do know that I don't remember dreams that often.
This past week was sort of a difficult one. For one reason or another, which I can't quite put my finger on, I fell into a state of fear and longing for old friends. It wasn't about not being happy. I am so very happy right now, I'm happy that I'm out here doing what I need to do and seeing what I need to see...and meeting those who I need to meet. I am happy that I even have an opportunity to experience life outside of bubbles and prewritten paths. But I guess it was more of a longing for knowledge, for encouragement, for vision. I have no idea what will become of my life. I know what kind of a person I want to be and I know that no matter where I am, I can be content. But I think I am afraid of the road...
It's hard to start over. With people, with everyday happenings, going to the store, making trips to the bank...all those little things. It's so different, and the people you meet don't provide you with instant and unconditional companionship. It takes time to cultivate that, and being patient is one of the hardest attributes to attain.
Now dream interpretation could be considered taboo or silly, but I think your mind is so intricately made that sometimes the things we want to express cannot escape the noise of the everyday. When my mind wanted to scream out and release that lever, I believe it did so in my dream...and my tears. I know I cannot see far ahead of me, and I know it's going to take baby steps. But I also know that in order to tackle the roads, the freedom, my intellect...I have to be ok with what I have right in front of me. That bird will not move until I accept that. And I do have people that look up to me and people that I look up to myself. Learning from the past and listening to signs of the future will be key in moving at all. Otherwise, the more happy with a stagnant life I become, the more my smile will fade and I certainly do not want that.
I am so grateful for the people I have around me right now. Those people who are encouraging and can certainly see the best potential in me...those people who know what words I need to hear and seem to express those words with quite serendipitous timing. They have been part of my backbone that holds me up throughout my own metamorphosis, and I thank them for that. And thank you to those who even though I may be far away geographically, still care enough to hold on tightly to relationships that have cultivated my own character.
Although this past week was taxing emotionally, the lesson remains the same. Keep looking foward, never settle and always follow your dreams. :)
For me, I think it's just figuring out what my dreams are.
