Little Wonders

I don't know if my blog really fits it's name anymore. Here I am going onto my 4th year in Boston, and no longer do I feel brand new.

I have been sleeping, waking up in the eastern sun, strolling through days and living my life, sometimes running through it...

I've put my life and heart in hands besides mine, always trying to regain control of what I know, what I need, and what I've always wanted. Sometimes I feel so far away, in a different world, surrounded by strangers. I miss my family, I miss my old friends, and I miss the innocence of myself before I came here. Looking back though, I know these last 3 years have taken me on a tumultuous ride filled with new friends, new love, new laughter and tears, while searching and learning new things. I came and did what I set out to do here, but I've gained so much in the process.

From driving across the country wide-eyed, to feeling almost completely helpless between these tall city buildings, I remember wondering why I did it and if I could actually pull through to accomplish my goals. Not really knowing what would come out of going to school here, I knew one thing...that I needed to finish. Last year I did, and I was completely proud of myself for getting there. Now, I'm just here and I've been so anxious thinking, what next? I get nervous when I'm still.

What I'm learning though, is it's okay to be still. I need to stop and appreciate where I've been, how I got there and who has listened to my frustrations, wiped my tears, and also laughed in light of my ever changing questions of life. I've laughed and smiled with those close to me, and have loved every opportunity I've had to enjoy the friends and awesome places that surround me.

I hope all my memories of being in Boston for the last 3 years will stay with me forever. It truly has been a life changing experience. It's funny how this thought comes up...it's usually when I'm driving down Memorial Drive, into the sunset and looking to my left at this city that's been my home. I live in Massachusetts. Who would've thought?! Certainly not me...